I can't think well

Mode: Apabila aku x boleh berfikir dengan baik

Lately, mood is ke laut...rs bersalah pong ader, tp i can't force myself! hapenakjadintah! keje is berlambak2! keje yg sedia ader pong, aku x leh nk cover, ni kan plak keje2 laen yg bertambah menjadikan aku bagai nak giler!



Ok lahh meh2 tolong aku! minit dah 3 minggu x done! hapekejadah aku kene wat minit, aku pong x tau! meh2, dgn saat pun aku boley wat kan...hewhewhew...klu hasil x memuaskan, maaf yer boss...ngeee..
Last week outstation, pastu beg laptop tinggal kt lokasi 2nd last ms outstation! ok, sgt good kan! dalam tu sume ader, ok good lagi!!! power bank, resit hotel nk claim...sume dalam tu plak...adoiyaiii...

kbai~

As smooth as well

Mode: It seems like too many things to do, yet so little time

There's no such word can say....Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan....thanks to my family who always support me from behind.....in every single things that i do.....i love u sooooo much! Especially to my Dearly mOm! Deep down inside my heart, there's no empty space to put ur love! it's full enough mOm...with the joy, the love, the happiness...& everythings that mOm gimme!!! it's warm! cool! calm~ Alhamdulillah, it's a gift from Allah....the best gift!

Hati ni sbnrnya dah penuh! sarat dgn kasih sayang mak & for sure kasih syg abah yg kekal abadi dalam diri! it's been almost 2 months, when abah leave me......to continue survive in this world! but know wut, everytime i remember him, aku rs mcm br semalam abah pegi! & hati ni akan rs sayuuuu sgt! susah nk cakap, but klu kita pernah rs kehilangan, yes, for sure kita akan faham! dalam hidup aku, bila abah pegi, aku rs tulaaaa kehilangan paling dasyat yg aku pernah lalui.

Hati ini dipujuk dgn janji Allah yang sememangnya no doubt! ianya PASTI....& as a human being, aku berpegang pada janji itu...even, aku sendiri ader kot termungkir janji~heh....

There's soooo many things yg aku rs aku dah regret! tp, life must go on right! & sumtimes, akal yg cetek ni mcm berkata2...."wut if abah is here....stand still by my side...."... ader byk soalan aku nk tanya dia! ada banyak pendapat & keputusan dia yg aku nak tau! *kembali beristighfar~& calm myself to accept the fact, that abah is gone! yes, gone!!

Stand by my own feet~ni benda yg abah selalu ajar aku....but still, i can feel his love! his care! eventhough he teach me to lean on my own shoulder! because, maybe abah know, that 1 day he will leave me behind without any replacement to take care of me! & masa ni.....skrg ni....i admit that i need him badly!!!

Abah, there's no word can say....how much i love u....i miss u.....i need u.....smg abah tenang di sana...

Allah SWT Maha Adil....DIA takkan tinggalkan kita seorang diri~Allah hadirkan keluarga yg sakinah....rezeki yang baik berupa kawan-kawan yg memahami....yg sentiasa ada dikala aku susah atau senang....Allah hu Robbi...alhamdulillah....

Thanks to all!

Haji @ Umrah

Mode: Mana lagi afdhal?

Semalam aku merempit ke Tabung Haji...phew~panas kot!! sun burn aku jadi'y (bukan dah born to be cenggitu ke?) ok abaikan...
Ada urusan sikit kat sana....ms duk kat kaunter tuh, staff lelaki plak yg assist..alahai, ni yg malas ni....muka plak sedap mata memandang! cissss~tula, org kater, klu agama'y perfect, kita pandang, mmg sejukkk je rasa! hisy, melalut lagi..

Ok, sembang punya sembang, aku tye dia, antara haji & umrah, mana lagi afdhal?? ok ke klu pegi umrah dl sblm g haji??? sebab hr tuh mySiss (2 s sbb kedua-2 sista cakap) kene cukupkan duit pegi haji dulu baru boley g umrah! aiseymannnn.....mana pulak nk cekauuu kann...tp org tabung haji tu cakap, boley je nk g umrah dulu...asalkan kita ada perancangan utk cukupkan duit utk haji....gaji bulan2, simpanla....sbb utk g haji pun, kene Q...asalkan ada perancangan...

Ok, paham! so, in syaa Allah...im working hard for it!!!

Tanah Haram

Mode: Hati ni parah dah!! dah terbayang2 kaabah depan mata! terngiang2 pesan abah suh mak pegi umrah dulu~

Pape pun, impian aku utk g sama2 ke Tanah Haram dgn Mak Abah dah x kesampaian....perancangan Allah, x de sape boley sangkal lagi kannn.....
Ingat lagi ms mula2 keje dulu lepas grad, dlm hati kemain lagi nk kumpul sebulan 1k, cukup 20 bulan (within 2 years), dah cukup duit utk mak abah pegi Haji....
But, apa aku buat?? duit ntah ke mana! asek duniaaaa je....akhirat ntah ke mana! & till abah dah pegi, aku x dapat tunaikan pun hasrat aku tu...
Deep in my heart, im begging abah to forgive me!

& now, bila dah terlalu mengejar dunia....sampai aku rs, sampai bila2 pun aku x boley sampai sana dgn duit simpanan sendiri! bila pk balik, kete gedabak tuh boley pulak aku beli kan.....ni kan pulak utk ke Tanah Haram! Allah hu Robbi, jemput kami ke sana Ya Allah....

So, aku rs, by hook or by crook, kalau Allah x jemput....kalau Allah x izin, hape pun x jadi kannnn....

Bismillah hi tawakkal tu 'alallah.....aku berserah hanya kpd zat Yang Maha Kaya....semoga 1 hari nanti, aku dapat jugak jejakkan kaki ke sana....& semoga kat sana nanti Allah hadiahkan aku, supaya dapat bawa bersama kasih sayang abah yg sentiasa hidup dalam jiwa ni...

aaminnn Allah humma aaminnn

Sooner or Later

Mode: Need a reason to continue walking!

Firstly nk ckp...i am very the very frustrated & disappointed utk melihat islam didaulatkan di bumi bertuah bernama Malaysia...means, thn ni ader lagi lah Hari Belia Negara wut so ever....
I'm sick with that! Tgk anak2 muda belia remaja bercampur tanpa ada batasan!
~well said, semoga Allah berikan hidayah kepada kita semua!
Nampaknya kempunan nk tgk UAI mai ptjy wat kuliah & kempunannnn nk berpusu2 pi kuliah UAI dgn golongan2 belia yg lain! eh, belia lagi kah aku nieh? eh shadap!! x pela, aku menumpang selangor lagi lah gamaknya....till 5 thn lagi! adeh~~

Live being so boring? hurm, ntah! no goal to achieve! & sumtimes got to say that i'm blank to think! there's no more somebody that i love to lean....no more shoulders to cry...& for sure, worst come to worst, i need to stay calm...cool & rilex!?

uhh~